Take in criticism. Analyze it then interpret it. Look at all the outlooks and possibilities that can lead from it. Even if the situation may be staggering and/or critical. Handle it with a positive attitude. Tell yourself you can. Don’t doubt yourself. Force yourself. When there’s an obstacle, there’s always an opportunity. You may only have one chance, so make it count. So don’t go fucking up your last chance.
I need to get my shit together. It’s been a whole semester and all I’ve been doing is slacking and being lazy ass.
I need a motivator. Something or someone to keep me on track and let it stay that way.
Why do I have to have such a pessimistic mindset? It gets me no where. I’m always hesitating to do things, even if they were small. I always have the thought of when I’m being watched, I don’t want to fuck up. But when it comes the time and I have to go against something I may not be able to overcome, I just give up. I don’t understand why I can’t overcome being so negative and actually try to be optimistic for once.
Cool, you say you don’t give a crap about me anymore because I can’t make it to your graduation when I’m stuck in another city at the moment.
Coming home everyday, to a mother who uses the threat, “I’ll leave!” whenever she’s pissed.
I don’t know anymore.
I don’t want things to end up like the past. Distance sounds about right for now.
These words taunt me. I don’t know what I should think. I’m so confused.