My thoughts and views are only conceptual intuition and open due to the past experiences and the people I have came across and surrounded by throughout my life. I’ve grown accustomed to it. Over time, from being a kid that was completely oblivious to the world to becoming an individual who wants to understand and comprehend the surrounding of the environment. Maybe I’m still not the brightest kid out there, but I’m still learning day by day by day.
As I closed my eyes last night, I felt a slight feeling of sentimental consciousness. My mind instantly became shrouded within thoughts. I laid there in disgusted; sick to my stomach. I didn’t know how I was feeling. It just struck me out of no where. I don’t know how I let these things go this way. I guess I fell under the pressure of stress and let myself go too easily. I gave in. I just dropped my morals and gave in. I just wished I would’ve stopped myself back then. All I can do now is move on and improve myself rather than degrade myself.
Reminiscing through the past. I have to say, without all the people I’ve met, especially the two very people I met since middle school, that I’m glad I can call as my best friends, even though we’re not as close as we used to be or even talk to each other as much anymore, and another individual that I met in high school, I have to thank you guys. I wouldn’t be the person I am nor would I know where I would be today without you guys.
I wonder how I’m going to spend the next couple weeks/months without hearing a response from you every so often. I hope you’re doing okay in the time being.